Tiny Bites

An overly long, and probably unnecessary, deeper look into the inspiration behind my newest art work, Weather Peace.

This piece was an attempt at self- acceptance. I could say something like, “I was diagnosed with hereditary chronic depression three years ago and since then have received continual treatment”. But that doesn’t sound true at all. In my personal experience there is nothing that feels “medical” or “treatable” about depression. For me there doesn’t seem to be anything concrete about depression that can be pinned down and understood.

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Weathered Peace, 2019

Thread, Fabric, Beads, Canvas Stretchers
18″ X 24″

Weathered Peace visualizes the physical damage caused to the brain by Depression. It depicts these outwardly invisible malformations as an internal storm suspended in one’s mind. Thunderstorms can be both destructive and soothing. They can explode with lighting, implode with tornado, rejuvenate with rain. It is not something you can fight or cure. All you can do is face it without fear or anger. We all must be responsible and take the ownership of the storms that are apart of us.

Abstract Emotion Samplers, 2018

Abstract Emotion Samplers
A series
30″ X 11.5″
Spray Paint and Thread on Cardstock

A visual representation of emotions inspired by the beautiful compendium of words by John Koenig, The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows.
Rubatosis: The unsettling awareness of your own heartbeat.
Chrysalism: The amniotic tranquility of being indoors during a thunderstorm.
Vellichor: The strange wistfulness in used bookshops.
Kuebiko: A state of exhaustion inspired by acts of senseless violence.
Opia: The ambiguous intensity of looking someone in the eye, which can feel simultaneously invasive and vulnerable.
Enouement: The bittersweetness of having arrived in the future, seeing how things turn out, and not being able to tell your past self.

Artistic Process, 2018

Book Cutout Collage
Zine

This Zine is my exploration between realism and abstraction. What is more realistic; an image a machine takes of the stars? A chart with facts and figures? Or a Portrait? The struggle between realism and abstraction represents the struggle between an idea and an end result. Images of Charles Csuri’s Hummingbird animation are embroidered on top of the collaged images.

Friend or Foe, 2018

Thread on watercolor paper
23″ X 16.5″

Friend or Foe is an exploration of our atmosphere and relationship to the Sun. I find I have always attached positive emotional responses to the Earth and the Sun. The Earth is associated with trees, grassy lawns, and beaches. The Sun associated with shorts, suntans, and late summer evenings. Beyond those superficial reasons we need both to survive. As we slowly experience the self inflicted results of global warming and the previous damage done to the ozone the Earth and Sun take on a new uncaring and impartial persona. Friend or Foe can also be seen as the Earth’s natural response to humans based on how we treat our planet.

 

Homage to Failure, 2018

Past art work and wire
20″ X 17″ X 16″

Homage to Failure is a shrine built in honor of all my past failings. It is all my past artwork that I have kept collaged into a sphinx like creature. The Sphinx was a story about a creature with a head of a woman, body of a lion, and wings of an eagle that went around asking everyone the same riddle. Many people failed to answer and only person succeeded. It represents the overpowering importance of the discarded journey.
Failure rules most peoples lives and decisions. People are often motivated by fear of failure, avoidance of past failures, or learning experiences cause by failures. If you think about how often people hope/pray to avoid failure, it seems to be a god just based on it’s reputation and relevance. One that people fear and definitely do not respect. I am at a point in my life where I am trying to view Failure as an adventure and not something to be ashamed of. Life is literally a journey that involves more failures than successes. If I continue to fear and be ashamed of failure the result will be being scared and embarrassed about the majority of life.